Category Archives My personal Walk With God

I have always been a bad decision maker, this goes probably for most of us... How many of us are proud of everything we have ever done? How many of us recall a very specific bad decision we have made in our life? Oh man, If making bad decisions was a sport I would be a professional.....It seems that no matter how hard I try I still cannot overcome bad decisions in life. Let me recall one very bad decision in my life that still haunts me to this day. As a young adolescent, I grew up in Fresno California, for those that have no idea where that's at...? Good. Its a terrible place, somewhere between San Francisco and Mexico...where the Gangs are like street performers on the main strip in Vegas. When I was roughly 10 years old, I was walking to school with one of my best friends Ryan.…

I think a very popular topic among the atheistic followings is why would you follow a God that wants you to be scared of him..? Are we to be afraid of God and his wrath? Are we to fear God? I remember growing up, it was a popular tactic among the Russian culture to try and scare you straight. You would have older people telling you that you would be cast into the pits of hell if you didn't straighten up. I even remember my mom telling me, Are you not scared, imagine if you were to get hit by a car on your way home...would you go to heaven? Can you imagine how terrible hell would be? I seen this scare tactic as a form of pressure to try and manipulate that Jesus wants you to be miserable in the afterlife. This is why many atheists have a hard…

Its  been one of those days, you ever have one of those days that everything is just going smooth? People are calling you, people are being nice to you...you are able to hear Gods voice. The Holy Spirit comforts you...you get invited over for dinner...you feel happy...you feel great. Well, today was one of those days. I pray and God hears me. He overwhelms me with his presence....He lets me know that he is there, he talks and comforts me as the day goes on. Oh how I wish everyday was this amazing. Oh how I wish we would feel this sense of being acknowledged all the time... Yesterday was quite the opposite, in fact most of my week has felt that way. I have felt alone, I felt that something wasn't there. I actually began to tell myself that God doesn't hear me! He doesn't care about me. Oh…

Lets face it...we all worry, we all doubt things, we like being in charge.... This topic sits very deep within who I am...I have always been a worry wart. I tend to over analyze anything and everything in my life. I always complicate the most simple subject and complicate the most simple response. I know this issue resides with many people out there. How many of you worry about everything all at once, all the time...Welcome to the club. I have been out on my own since the age of 16, I have been paying the bills and rent before I was old enough to legally get into a R-rated movie. So at a really young age I have been forced to always be on guard. To always be ready for the worst, to always be ready to pay the bills. I know the idea of independence for most of…

I wanted to take a different approach today... I am new to this blogging thing and by no means claim to be a professional blogger. I am just doing something I really enjoy. If you want to know the truth, I really love to write. Seems like when I sit behind the keyboard I just float away. I actually get excited in the morning, thinking, what can I blog about today...What is on my heart? What is God telling me? Is he saying anything? That often happens....I look for answers but I hear nothing...Often times I think is it because God cannot hear me?...and the doubt kicks in. I don't claim to be this perfect person, in fact, I think one of my biggest weaknesses is being my worse critic, being a failure. I often think about how hard life can be and if i don't succeed in this or…

I am pleased this evening, I tell you. Nothing we do in this life is a coincidence. The way you were raised wasn't a coincidence. The way you were conditioned wasn't a coincidence. Everything in this life all has a purpose, the way you stumble, the way you get back up...You have been predestined to act a certain way (Not a Calvinistic pun). God has created you and already has seen the beginning and the end. He has seen your pains and has seen your accomplishments. He has already seen your greatness. But the question is, have you? You are alive and god has given you life, because you have a purpose. I had an opportunity to spend the evening with a friend very dear to me, I enjoy all the relationships God has put into my life, and don't doubt for a second that all of them have purpose.…