Spiritually Sick
As the cold weather is creeping upon us I wanted to discuss a topic that’s been cooking in my head for the last few months. I wanted to share a little story with whoever is out there and willing to listen.
This year was the first year in my life that I’ve gotten so sick- a sickness that was ignored. Many of us battle with a cold every year…Well I usually don’t get sick ever. In fact, its been years since I’ve been bed ridden from a sickness. It all started with a sore throat one morning as I woke up in need of a drink of water- as the week progressed that sore throat turned into swollen glands and a cough.
As I drank my dayquil during the day and nyquil during the night I tried to ignore the reality that my body was fighting a sickness. In fact, I thought…pshhh my body is resilient to anything- making a snarky remark to my wife about how I never get sick for longer than a few days…….Well that sickness turned into 2 weeks, as i continued to drink my medicine I slowly started to realize that this sickness would not go away on its own. Being the stubborn person I am I refused to visit the doctor. However, this cold turned into a low-grade fever and my whole body started to ache. I began to get nervous- could I have gotten pneumonia? Was I being that reckless? Don’t people die from pneumonia?
Oh boy- these questions began to eat me mentally- so I caved and went to a local walk-in clinic. As they decided to check for every humanly possible disease- I mean who cares, right? Its not like I don’t have insurance….Wait I don’t..(influenza test, x-ray of lungs, hepatitis A, B, C, ….etc)….Lets just say I shortly realized why I don’t go to doctors…I went in for simple cold I felt like I become their personal lab rat.
Nevertheless, As I was being examined and the doctor checked me out- he asked what have I been taking to help with my sickness? I told him everything…vitamins, probiotics, antibiotics (My mom gave me hoping it would help), and medicine like dayquil and nyquil. After a long visit and 100 tests later the doctor informed me that I had a viral infection and not a bacterial infection…..So the entire time I was taking all these pills and antidotes I wasn’t making anything better only worse- in fact, he said the only way you can cure a viral infection is with two major steps: Rest and hydration.
Who would’ve thought? Like I spent an entire day and depleted my bank account to hear someone tell me I’m sick and there’s no solution other than sleep and drinking water….Quite honestly, I was a bit irritated- relieved of course that I wasn’t dying from hepatitis A or B (hahaha) but irritated.
The reality was- the reason I became so sick was because I chose to ignore it…I was clearly sick and instead of seeking help- I started to self medicate and ignore the signs (it was hard to admit it)…even if these signs became more prominent as the virus became stronger and started to effect many parts of the body. First the throat, then the tonsils, then the lungs, then the remainder of my body…..
My life incident is no different than my spiritual life…In fact, God was so creative that he made our spiritual health very similar to our physical health. Often times we forget how truly important our spiritual health is- sometimes it becomes to late….we become spiritually sick. This usually starts from very minor signs..this can be us getting into a fight with a church member…That leads to not attending church…which eventually leads to breaking contact with God all together.
Being spiritually healthy is hard work- it will not happen if you handle it like I handled my cold (carelessly). It takes dedication and consistency. It takes work- meaning you will have to be constantly fighting your own ego to maintain your spiritual metabolic levels at normal (Metabolic: its a test they do when they check your blood for white blood cells and other things).
In fact, in the last several months I have not only been fighting a physical sickness but also a spiritual sickness. As I was driving down the road the Holy Spirit compelled me to turn on Harvest (Greg Laurie’s channel- a great preacher). The sermon that was being broadcast was on criticism. In fact, this was the second time I had heard the topic in the last few weeks. I felt the Holy Spirit convicting me as I continued to listen.
I have to admit that after I recently got married I have been consumed by all the distractions of life (work, friends, social outings, etc..) I have left very little room in my life for God. In fact, I noticed that this has essentially started to effect many many aspects in my spiritual life. For instance- my patience for people has become short, my trust in anyone is minimal, my opinion of others is rash or harsh…..I am quick to judge and become controversial and even angry, I started distancing myself from people and places- definitely not the fruits of the Spirit.
I know many of you are thinking- whats wrong with any of these things- they’re human responses? Well the truth is- everything. We as Christians are called to be in control of ourselves (our tongues, our opinions, our language, and our behavior).
32 Better a patient person than a warrior, one with self-control than one who takes a city (Proverbs 16:32)
28 Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control. (Proverbs 25:28)