My heart aches as I pretend that this is all not real. My soul mourns as I watched you go. You are here but you are not. I see you watching me from above. I have deep anguish and regret that if only you gave me one more minute of your time. If only you told me one more time that you love me. That you are proud of me. It pains me to the core of my being - having to admit to myself I will never see you again. I have still not fully comprehended this notion, as they lowered you into the dirt from which God took you out of. I remember your contagious laughter...I remember your smile. I know your smile will forever be in my heart because your smile was the smile of true happiness. You were not just my father, you were also my…
